The Drum and the Bubble Wrap

My heart lands hard as

It drops with a THUD on

The diaphragm drum

In the dim of my chest.

Initial impact.

Then, it beats.

DU.

DU.

DU.

DU.



Titanic timpano

Suddenly solos

Alone center stage.

Walloped in time,

The timpano beats.

As nausea nudges

The drum’s underside—

Just as my heart sounds

With sickening strikes—

I quickly suppress

The rhythmical rumbles,

These pounding vibrations,

So low,

So dark,

Unnervingly deep.



With huge bubble wrap

I buffer the beats,

Encase in entirety the

Lumbering drum

Shockingly fast!

So many layers!

Enshrouding the drum,

I muffle the thumps.

I block out the beat that

Pounds low in my chest.



I use the whole roll,

I wrap on the layers,

And squeeeeze!

A crackling, compulsive,

Plastic pops chorus

ERUPTS

In frantic intrusion.



I wrap and I squeeze—

Crackle and shatter!

I wrap and I squeeze

Over and over.

Wrap squeeze

PRRRRRRRRRAP!

WrapWrapWrapSqueeze

PRRRRRRRRRAP!



My attempt to drown out

The first painful cadence

Starts sounding in time,

Despite my best efforts.

The wrap, the squeeze,

The shatter, the crackle—

Meant to drown out, but

Instead variate the

Theme driving the drum,

So low,

So dark,

Unnervingly deep.



This song only starts

When I’m on stage alone.

What will unfold if

It plays to the end?

Pure

True

Pain

DU.



How brave can I be?

Can I let the drum beat?

What will become of

The lumbering drum—

Naked, unshielded,

Exposed as it beats?

DU.

DU.

DU.

DU.

What

Will happen

To me?